Maybe he was not wrong in what he did. To each his own. He didn’t have to tell the truth to me. BUT I knew and I had realized that he didn’t have to lie to me either.
Why did he lie? Not because he didn’t have to tell the truth.
Being truthful to the people around, to your friends, is the basic virtue of friendship. He breached that. He lied because probably he knew I had feelings for him. He lied because he didn’t want to give up on me. He knew I was head over heels for him and he liked me swooning over him.
He lied because he didn’t want me to know the truth. He didn’t want me to walk away from him.
He wanted a girl to keep having feelings for him. It was a great ego booster for him.
I am not trying to console myself or trying to say that he had feelings for me. I know he never did. But that is what explains his behaviour. If he didn’t have the feelings at all, why did he lie?
He wanted me to be there in his life as an extra. And it was a win-win situation for us. It plumped his image of himself that he was wanted, badly desired by somebody. And on the other hand, I was happy with whatever little alms I was receiving from him. Unless, I stopped being that extra.